Thursday, April 21, 2011

Week 36

Wow, listen to this fucked up shit. Exactly why I chose to remain in the hole once my MRSA healed. When I was at the other jail the 1st 6 months, I heard of a fight, in a different module, where a guy died. The story was that some guy was picking on a lil' Asian man, they got in a lil' BS fight, went back to their cells and when time came for everyone to come out during the evening, the instigator of the fight was dead in his bunk. So since arriving to the hole, I have been speaking to this really friendly Buddhist guy from Burma. He's here cuz he tried to stop a tow truck driver from towing his car, got in a lil' fight and that was that. He has a wife and kids, super nice man. Well I came to find out this lil' Buddhist guy is the same guy from downtown, the one who got picked on, fought and "killed" the guy. This poor lil' guy came here for a B.S. lil' altercation with a shady ass tow truck driver and now is fighting MURDER, cuz he was forced to stick up for himself when some racist asshole picked on him! This guy couldn't hurt a fly! How the guy died is a total fucking fluke! I feel so bad for him and his family... at the same time though, I'm so happy I chose to stay in the hole. When I 1st chose to stay here and one of the Deps tried to make me go back to the general population, he was like "What are you worried about? You know how to fight. If you have to defend yourself you won't get any new charges." Yeah right!! If they're charging the sweet lil' Buddhist guy for defending himself, with MURDER, the fucking media and court system would have a field day with me! I can see it now: "Not even prison can detour the ultra violent War Machine, just yesterday he savagely beat a man to death! He is now being tried for 1st degree murder and faces the death penalty." LMAO!! Tell me I'm wrong!!?? Shittt... this poor lil' guy fled from civil war in Burma only to be condemned as a MURDERER for defending himself!! Isn't our American government great?? Land of the FREE? Home of the BRAVE? Haha! The "BRAVE" are in jail for murder for defending themselves! We, the U.S.A., need a civil war!

Anyway, it's a new day and I got new ideas. Right now I'm fuckin' pumped! I got my strength back in the pull-up department! For a while there I had gotten so weak I could barely do 9!! Pathetic!! Right now I just did 7 sets: 1st set 20, 2nd 16, 3rd 15, 4th 15, 5th 13, 6th 12, and 7th 12. Feels good to make a come back. My push-ups are still lacking for some reason but definitely getting better as I had gotten to the point I could do like 60 the 1st set and the 2nd I couldn't break 35!! I just did 7 sets and in each set did 50 or more. My squad #'s are strong again too. I really can't wait to train for real and FIGHT again!! I'm gonna have a renewed enthusiasm for the sport, after losing it for an entire YEAR. Now I know how much I really LOVE it!! I'm gonna fight as much as possible! Don't care how small the show is, I just want to FIGHT ALL THE TIME!!

Alright, on to sadder news, that Japanese quake/tsunami was horrible and the news channel is really pissing me the fuck off! Bunch of opportunistic blood sucking scum bags! With their phony sympathy... they get off on the suffering of others, makes me sick! What good is it to show people crying and devastated at the loss of loved ones? They have no fucking respect for people, they just want an interesting story! I fucking hate newscasters/reporters/companies PERIOD! News has been censored and bogus since it's beginnings so you can shove that bullshit about "our right to know." More like our right to HEAR what THEY FEEL like telling us. Fuck the news! And my heart goes out to the Japanese people.

A few posts back, I said I wasn't bored anymore and was "used to jail" ... Well, I'm bored again, and hate it again! LOL! Oh shit! Another one of my training partners is on the new TUF, his name is Chris Cope, look out for him. I hope he does well. Now I'm thinkin' about my wife. When I'm released, I'll have been gone for a whole year... crazy thing is that I really think she hasn't/won't bone anyone in that time... crazy right? What did I ever do to deserve such loyalty? Could I honestly do the same? If I went to jail any longer than a year I'd have broke it off, just out of un-selfishness. It's not right to EXPECT someone to go without basic human needs for so long. Even if she hadn't "waited" I wouldn't have tripped. Love is more than dicks and pussies... That's what people don't understand. Too many healthy, strong relationships end because of the overemphasis of sex. Humans aren't perfect and one partner, in terms of sex, isn't necessarily realistic. Either way, I feel lucky to have someone that truly loves me so much. That's the REAL reason I chose to marry... I've never seen anyone love someone as much as I see her love me. Like a puppy loves it's owner or how a lil' girl loves her father, that's how she loves me. It's crazy... especially for me because my life has been one with a real lack of love. Alright enough of me being gay... lol


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